November 7, 2020. Today is my 38th birthday. Today is my 5th wedding anniversary.
I have learned much about love in the last few years of life. I’d like to take you on my journey, in part.
When I was single and dateless, love eluded me. I thought love was evasive.
When I started dating seriously, love flowed around me. I thought love was effortless.
When I became engaged, love overwhelmed me. I thought love was perfect.
When I got married, love surprised me. I thought love was beautiful.
When selfishness and mundane reality intruded, love started fighting. I’ve found love is fierce.
When anniversaries started accumulating, love started changing. I’ve found love is adaptable.
When Satan whispered lies to my married soul, love started coaching. I’ve found love is truth.
When flesh started battling for me first, love corrected me. I’ve found love is disciplining.
Love is patient, love is kind, love does not envy, love does not boast, love keeps no record of wrongs.
When I struggled, love rescued me. I’ve found love is gracious.
When differing opinions offended me, love calmed me. I’ve found love is gentle.
When distance separates me from him, love calls. I’ve found love is bonding.
When I think I have figured marriage out, love laughs. I’ve found love is marvelous.
Love always hopes.
Love always trusts.
Love always perseveres.
Love never ends.
(And some of you have been hurt, and love has felt hard, and marriages have ended. Take heart, the love of God that is pure is for you, and His love is your and my ultimate story. Earthly love is to mirror God’s love — yet we live in a fallen world. As the song says, “The love of God is greater far than tongue or man can ever tell. It goes beyond the highest star and reaches to the lowest hell. Oh love of God, how rich and pure, it shall forever more endure.” May God’s love fill you in an unending, pure, truth-giving way. No matter your story, no matter your marital status, no matter your past: You are loved with an everlasting love!)
Good Morning Precious Women of God! Today is Sunday, 10/4/20.
My husband and I still are not going to church. I miss it. I miss gathering. I miss normalcy. Sometimes I feel guilty about not being there. Other times I find myself wondering what it means to honor the Sabbath in these times. Many emotions are involved in this year of ongoing changes, griefs, and realities. Both at a global level and at a personal level. I know you relate.
I am working my way through the Old Testament. I’m slowing down and studying. And I am very thankful for Bible studies and Bible teachers as some of this is hard to understand! And I’m only scratching the surface in my “studying!” I am now in Micah. Micah is one of 12 minor prophets in the Bible. (Minor prophets are given that title based on the length of book in the Bible, not based on their message! And as I learned, “The minor prophets fall into two groups: preexilic and postexilic, depending on whether they ministered before or after the exile of the southern kingdom (Judah) to Babylon from 605 to 536 B.C.”) Micah ministered before the exile. In Biblical histroy, the people of Israel were God’s chosen people, and they had been united then they divided and formed two kingdoms – the southern kingdom and the northern kingdom, led by separate kings. Both kingdoms eventually went the ways of the world around them, and begin worshiping gods other than the Lord God. This evoked God’s anger. These were His people. All through the prophetic books of the Bible we see warning and hope intermingling. God can not be unfaithful to His covenant – ever! He sends warnings and punsishment, often events around them that seemed to be bent on destroying them, yet in the midst of this God always promised restoration at some point in the future. In the New Testament when Jesus Christ takes people’s sin on the cross, this is the beginning of restoration for all people. Gentiles (anyone not of Jewish ancestroy) are “grafted in” as God’s people! So everyone who believes in God and the forgiveness of sin through Jesus’ blood is one of His own people, Jew or Gentile! There is hope for all people then! Revelations, the last book of the Bible, is full of the promise of a new heaven and a new earth that is coming when Jesus returns to this earth and physically rules and reigns and makes all things right! Oh such a thought! So much has to happen before that time, yet that time is ever drawing closer. I used to be scared by the thought – until I grew in knowledge and understanding of God. For “far be it from God to destroy the righteeous with the wicked!” And Precious Lady, if you have accepted Jesus as your Savior who died for your sins, nothing can separate you from the love of God, and He bestows on us His rightesousness. (So awesome!) So there truely is no need to fear. Restoration is coming!
Yet we are not promised there will not be suffering and trials in this life. Rather Jesus suffered physcially and set an example for us to follow. We are told “in this world there will be trials.”
This brings me to my study. I am finding the minor prohpets are a great resource of Truth in our present day circumstances.
I have read Micah before, and I found it a very confusing book, so I have never lingered in it. So this time, I read chapter 1 at least three times before I even opened my study, and I read it several days apart as nothing grasped me, and studying the book seemed a bit intimidating. So I kept “not doing it.”
Last night, in the middle of the night, I was thinking of COVID and President Trump now diagnosed (which regardles of which side you lean to, the fact that our president has COVID just adds to uncertainties and what if’s), and elctions and politics, life, our world.
I went ino the kitchen. I opened my Bible. What to read? Well, I’m supposed to be in Micah. So I prayed a quick prayer asking for understanding.
And I read Micah chapter 1:2-3 “Hear, O peoples, all of you: Listen, O earth and all it contains, And let the Lord God be a witness against you, the Lord from His holy temle. For behold, the Lord is coming forth from His place. He will come down and tread on the high places of the earth.”
I paused. Learning to listen to God sometimes means not “reading the whole chapter just to get through” – it means stopping when something “grasps you.” So, this verse is to all people of all the earth. This verse shows that God is being roused from His holy temple to tread the high places of the earth. Hmmm. High Places in the Old Testament were places of idol worship.
1:7 states, “all of her idol’s will be smashed. (Her refers to Samaria, the capitol of Israel)
Hmm. I pondered. What are MY idols that God needs to smash? What are our nation’s idols that God needs to smash? Hmm. Sobering. Yet this message is one I’ve heard several times in the last couple of months from several places – the idea of repentence of things that we set up above God. Sometimes not even “bad things” – good things can be idols too if they are above God in our hearts. My heart cries: Oh God, let us be women who listen to You! What do we need to hear? How do we repent? Let us not be stubborn with hard hearts!
When I came to Micah 1:12, I stopped again as I read, “For the inhabitant of Maroth becomes weak waiting for good, because a calamity has come down from the Lord.” Hmm. Calamity has come down from the Lord.
I googled calamity (Bible study tip: define words – even words you think you know!). Calamity according to Merriam Webster is: A disastreous event marked by great loss and lasting distress and suffering. Or, A state of deep distress or misery caused by misfortune or loss. I looked at the synonyms too. These were listed: Catastrophy, Disaster, Tragedy. And even more interesting to me were the related words: Collapse, Crash, Meltdown, Armageddon, End-time, and Upheaval.
Hmmm. I pondered more. Then I looked at the phrase at the bottom of my screen: “Near Antonyms for Calamaty: Godsend, Manna.” Antoynms are opposites. So interesting that Godsend and Manna appear. (Manna – provision from God as seen in the Old Testament). (Godsend. We tend to say a gift is a Godsend.) Hmm. Think, think, think! Oh Ladies, please think and ponder this yourself. What is God saying to you?
To me, I see Micah – a prophet to the people of Isreal before their exile. Therefore he was warning them and calling them to repent. I just read 1 chapter of Micah and this time, these verses “spoke” to me. (Thank you, Lord! Bible study tip – start with prayer to understand and persevere even if it takes you awhile on the same verse or chapter).
Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth, Revive our Hearts host, often says: “Anything that causes me to need God is a blessing.”
Anything that causes me to need God. I can think of a few things: politics, our world, COVID, uncertainties, things in my personal life, etc. These things cause me to need God. Could they be said they are Godsends? Hmmm. Some of these things I see around me are calamities. Hmm. Micah 1:12 – Calamities from the Lord. Hmmm. His purpose is to smash our idols. Hmmm. He is in his Holy Temple. Hmm. What is God saying? I want to ponder this today. I want to hear God in this season, in all the unknowns.
Oh Ladies, here is a quick challenge – study Micah chapter 1 for your self and see why God was roused from His temple. Write out your own idols as God brings them to mind. How can we particpate with God in smashing the idols in our lives? How can calamities be “from the Lord?” God is in His holy temple, and he is working to purify a people for Himself. Pray for your children and those who don’t know Jesus that they would come to know Him! Pray that in wrath He remembers mercy. Pray for soft, repentent hearts towards Him and His Word. Pray that God be first in your life. These are prayers that smash the idol of self focus, and these are prayers that advance the kindgom of God and His rule. Dear ladies – Press on!
Anyone younger than 10 years old likely would see the title of my post, and think of the movie Frozen. Hah! As a side, I actually really like that movie! I just think it is a cute kid movie! This movie came out 7 years ago. At that time I was a nanny for my niece. I remember playing with her, and she would have me go into her room and close the door. She’d then lay down outside the door and put her face to the floor to peek under the door. “Elsa, Elsa,” she would say. This was copying a scene in the movie. And so many little girls love the song Let It Go. In fact my niece and I (when I was her nanny) were inside the store Kidstuff. This toy and education store is full of fun for children, and many of their items are able to be tried out by the children in the store. This day we were in this store, and another little girl was belting out Let It Go into a microphone. Both my niece and I watched her. I later asked my niece if she’d like to try the microphone out. She shyly nodded. She was only willing to whisper the song into the microphone, but it was still cute! Another day I was walking into the grocery store. A father was pushing his cart out to the parking lot, and in the front of the cart was his little daughter, probably three or four years old. She and he were singing Let It Go. I smiled at the dad as I passed them, as he looked slightly embarrassed to be overheard singing Let It Go. I just thought it was cute that he was singing (and connecting) with his daughter!
Letting go — oh wouldn’t it be so nice if we as adult women could let it go as easily as a toddler singing a fun song? Yet, if you are like me, we don’t tend to let things go easily. We worry. We try to fix things. We try to take control.
Just this morning as my husband and I were talking about some things in our lives, I stated, “I don’t know what to do.” Later in the day, I was alone and thinking about the same things. I said to God, “I have to give it to You. I don’t know what else to do.” And later still, I was getting ready for bed and into my mind came “My Child, What could I do? You never did let go.”
Those words are part of a poem that I had read and reread years ago. I’ve since lost the card that had this poem on it, but I used to carry it in my purse way back in high school! I mulled over this, and my earlier thoughts of giving my situation to God. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. My mind mused. I argued back, “But what if…”
What if? My mom once asked me in my lonely single years, “What if God never brings you a spouse?” What if He doesn’t, I had to ask myself. I had to ask myself that more than once. Because the easy thing to say is: of course His will is best. But do I really believe this? In the midst of emotions? In the midst of wedding announcement number 25 (seriously, my senior year of college I think there were almost 25 engagements at my small Christian college!), in the midst of longings still unmet?
So tonight I looked up this poem (ahh, the benefit of an online database at my fingertips!)
As children bring their broken toys With tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to God Because He was my friend.
But then instead of leaving Him In peace to work alone, I hung around and tried to help With ways that were my own.
At last I snatched them back and cried, “How could you be so slow!” “My child,” He said, “What could I do? You never did let go.”
(Lauretta P. Burns)
And, because God loves me and knows I need help hearing Him, as I was typing this post I turned on the radio and “God is in Control” by Twila Paris was just beginning to play. I haven’t heard that song in ages. The very next song was “Great is Thy Faithfulness.” Is God speaking? You bet! Am I listening and trusting? That is the better question!
Precious ladies — what do you need to give to God? What is it that makes you say I don’t know what to do? God is Faithful. He is Healer. He is Defender. He is Able. He is the God who Sees. He is Sovereign. He is Trustworthy. He can fix anything broken — He can raise the dead, how much more “broken” can something get? Press on to trust Him! Ask Him what to do. Give it to Him over and over and over if you need to. But, precious lady — join me in learning to let it go!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE flowers! The more I have, the more I like, the more I want next year! And the thing is, I’m not very sure of what I’m doing. Some years are more successful. I actually keep a journal of my flower garden adventures: what I tried, what I like, what happened. Weird, but it works for me! I also note the weather conditions, because I have no control over that! I’d like to share some pictures with you, in my garden journey.
The picture on the left is the end of August last year. I had planted 3 plants in the planter: 2 red calibrachoas (million bells, a cousin of the petunia) surrounding a purple calibrachoa. You can see some flowers, some growth, some brown. The right picture is the beginning of this summer. This time I switched it up and tried 2 yellow bidens with 6 wave petunias. The bottom picture shows the same planter 13 weeks later. You’ll notice the bidens barely show, the petunias have taken over en mass!
And I love how full that planter is! It makes me happy to see pink flowers. When the yellow ones poke through I love it even more to see the cheeriness of yellow with the prettiness of pink! And yet these little flowers are teaching me a lesson.
You see, I am not a very good gardener. I try hard though. I read about proper care. I have researched planting and the flowers. I have tried several times, and several combinations. And I’m getting better!
Are you wanting to say, “who cares?” Unless you love details of flowers, or my flowers in particular, this could be a so – what post! I get it! But let’s get into what God has been teaching me this summer as I care for my little plants. And hopefully you’ll be encouraged as I have been!
One: God gives beauty on this earth! I have been struck afresh with the brightness of color, and the pleasant sweet smell of the petunias (which smell more than calibrachoas by the way!). I have found myself really enjoying the moments of watering these flowers in either the morning hours with birds screeching around, or in the evening with neighbor kids riding bikes down the street.
Two: Gardening is not hands off. And that matters a lot.
So last summer, the flowers grew, and did ok. The end of August they had flowers. They looked fine, but they were simply fine – not spectacular! This summer the flowers are much improved in terms of fullness, and it is not even the end of the summer yet!
Lessons: I have had to readjust what I plant based on what I want. I have had to learn to prune. The flowers last year maybe had one trim halfway through July. That’s it. I watered them. I fed them. And it was cooler and rainier. This year I read up on pinching back the petunias, and on the importance of deadheading. So I stuck with it, pinching and deadheading all through June. In the beginning of July I decided they needed a trim, so I cut a bunch off. Two weeks later I cut MORE off, which you see below is no small amount. I even cut off full blossoms – not with the intent to enjoy them in a vase, but with the full intent to prune my plant! And I hope you can see: this final picture is 2 weeks ago, and the one above is now. Do you see the difference in the amount of flowers and growth today verses two weeks ago? It was when I was re-trimming that God begin to whisper to my soul.
He begin to explain some things to me about my life (and yours). He has an idea of what He wants our lives to look like. He wants our lives to be eye catching, and sweet aromas of Him so that we point others to Him. He carefully plants things in our lives here and there. Sometimes He plants more, sometimes less, all based on the result He is wanting in that season. And if He knows something can be better, He prunes. Pruning might hurt, it might include suffering — He might ask a lot to be given up. He might have to cut out things that shouldn’t be in our lives. He might even prune areas that look good already so that in a while more growth and beauty appears. And sometimes He prunes again just when you thought He was done for a while! He is The Master Gardener! His hand and work in our lives to prune us will make us better –if we yield ourselves under His perfect (sovereign) green thumb over the garden of our lives!
Precious Sisters — let’s see what God is doing this season in our lives! Is He pruning? Is He watering and fertilizing? He knows just what is needed, and what is not, to produce the best crop in each of us. His goal is that we would showcase Him! And just like these flowers — we might not see the growth until later!
Brad and I like to walk down along some gardens in St. Cloud. ( The Munsinger-Clemens Gardens. We highly recommend this little day trip!) We’ve gone several times this Spring and Summer, more so than other years –just to get out. We marvel at how much time and effort is put into those gardens. We delight in all we see and smell — which changes throughout the season. We talk of how that beautiful place pales in comparison to what Heaven will be like.
Ladies, God wants our lives to be beautiful–just as the most wonderful garden. He wants our lives to showcase Him and His glory. He cuts, He prunes, He weeds, He waters, He fertilizes, He plants new or different things. And then He repeats this over, and over, and over with such love and precision. Oh Ladies — press on, even through the pruning of your life!
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I recently watched a favorite movie of mine from my younger years, Ever After. The last lines of this Cinderella like movie made me smile. Danielle, the now princess, says to her new husband, “You, Sir, are supposed to be charming.” He replies, “And we are supposed to live happily ever after.” “Says who,” Danielle queries back. The Prince pauses and says, “I don’t know.” They smile at each other, and the movie fades away and on the screen we read, “and they lived happily ever after.”
Ahh. Remember watching the Disney channel? It used to be on Sunday nights, and I liked when our family occasionally watched together in the living room, gathered around our small television. Mom would sometimes make us a decidedly unhealthy dinner of pizza burgers and chocolate milkshakes. (This was a vast change from our normal meals!) Afterwards, The Lawrence Welk Show would continue the evening television lineup. My brother always left at that point! But I liked to watch some of it. The ladies were dressed up pretty, the music was jazzy and fun, and even though it could be a bit more boring than the previous Disney selection, it was fun in it’s own rights, especially since we didn’t watch a lot of tv in our family. Some of the sets were enchanting, the dancing was graceful or fun, and they always ended with a waltz. Ahh.
Happily ever after. The end. Princesses. Charming knights. It is the stuff of fairy tales.
Another favorite movie of mine from my childhood is Rigoletto. Do you know this one? It was produced by Feature Films for Families. The young heroine, Bonnie, is daughter of a widow. The town is poor, many people have great needs. A wealthy man buys and fixes up an old mansion. Bonnie ends up going to work for him, but is instructed to never go into his study, ever. One day she hears beautiful singing and can’t help but go in. Ribaldi, “the Master,” gets angry. Ribaldi’s face is scarred and he limps. Gabriella, “a princess” with an angelic voice, soothes Bonnie and after that an unlikely friendship strikes up as Bonnie asks Ribaldi to teach her to sing too, as he taught Gabriella. Ribaldi loves the town, especially the children. The townsfolk are given large amounts of money anonymously by Ribaldi, but they don’t know it is from him. The banker is selling their property, but they think Ribaldi is buying them out. The movie ends with the townsfolk hurting and killing Ribaldi in anger, thinking he is taking their homes, all while Bonnie is singing beautifully at a national contest that she was able to go to because of Ribaldi. She wins, and returns home only to find Ribaldi is gone. Yet, inside his home, she finds a man. He looks like Ribaldi, but he is not scarred and doesn’t limp. He says he is from a far away land, and is just passing through. He says to Bonnie, “But you don’t believe that do you?”
The move is a mix of reality and fantasy, and at one point Bonnie sings these words (Let Me In by Kurt Bestor and Sam Cardon):
I love the part in fairy tales That’s very near the end When all the kingdom cheers for this new queen; And all is well and all is good And everyone belongs, And happily they’re ever-aftering.
Ahh. Doesn’t it sound magical? Doesn’t it make you really want that? But look around us. Life is not happily ever after right now. Hatred, racism, extremists, terrorism, a pandemic, child abuse, sex trafficking, domestic violence, cancer, suffering, pain. I don’t need continue, though many more could be noted. Why does happily ever after call to us? Especially, when our reality seems that happily ever after is not possible.
Our hearts long for this elusive ending, I believe, because that is what we were created for and it is what is to come! Why do I think this? Because I just read Daniel. Because I’m studying my way through the Old Testament. The Old Testament tells a beautiful story of God and His plan and mankind’s fall into sin and their struggle to find that perfect unity that was lost when sin entered. The story begins in an utopia — a garden of delight and perfectness, and where Adam and Eve walked with God in the cool of the evening. Ahh, lovely– right! But sin and Satan entered and drew people away from God. Adam and Eve sinned and perfect union with God was marred; pain, suffering, and all sorts of evil now engrain human kind. (Genesis 2-3) Sin entered all aspects of humanity and all creation even groans under the weight of it. By the time you get to Daniel in the Old Testament, the Bible has already shown sin and the depraved mind of man. God grieved over the evil of mankind, so much that he had the intent to wipe out humanity. (Genesis 6:5-7). However, God saw something different in Noah. He sent a flood, but in kindness He spared Noah, and therefore, man. From that man, all people of the earth came to be. One group of people showcased in the Old Testament are the Jews, those of Israeli heritage. In continuing through the Old Testament the reader learns how God sustained them, blessed them, how they followed after other gods, how God rescued them, how He led them. It is seen over an over how they continually sought after something other than God alone. God, in justice, had to punish their sins. Yet again and again, in love, God rescued them, brought them back to Himself, and retaught them His ways. Now, Israel is “God’s chosen people” and they represent God’s plan and walk with all people. Praise God in the New Testament when Jesus comes, He dies for all people, even if not a Jew by blood! (This is hinted at all through the Old Testament too! Praise God!)
So in studying Daniel, I was supposed to come up with a theme for the book. I sometimes think this is a hard task to condense a book of the Bible into a main sentence. Daniel is full of prophecy. Many people would say that is the theme. But as I thought, this is what I wrote: God is the Most High God, the Ruler of Heaven and all of the earth. His Kingdom will endure forever!
Ahh! I went back and looked at who God is as noted in the book of Daniel. God is the Most High God, the Living God, the Ancient of Days, the Highest One, the Lord, the Great and Awesome God. He is righteous, compassionate, just. Ahh! Oh don’t you love it! God rules over all of heaven and all of earth. Sin is present right now in astonishing ways, but only for a time! In Daniel we see prophecy, yes, and in the middle of the predetermined time the Messiah comes! (Messiah, Savior, Jesus! Jesus died on the cross to remove our sin and restore right relationship with God!) And then, after that at the end of the predetermined time the Ancient of Days, God Himself, reigns and His kindgom will never end! Ahh!! Do you see? The fairy tale is in us. We long for happily ever after, because God has set eternity in our hearts! Oh precious sisters in God — press on to know this God of Heaven who rules supreme! His love for you is unfathomable! Sin’s effects of suffering and pain are great, and our world is in a topsy turvy because of this sin. But, we know the end! Praise God, happily ever after is coming!
Let the name of God be blessed forever and ever, for wisdom and power belong to Him. It is He who changes the times and epochs; He removes kings and establishes kings; He gives wisdom to wise men and knowledge to men of understanding. It is He who reveals the profound and hidden things; He knows what is in the darkness and the light dwells in Him. The Most High is ruler over the realm of mankind. … I blessed the Most High and praised and honored Him who lives forever; For His dominion is an everlasting dominion. For He is the living God and enduring forever. O Lord, the great and awesome God, who keeps His covenant and lovingkindness for those who love Him and keep His commandments, the Lord our God is righteous with respect to all His deeds which He has done. (Daniel 2:20-22, 4:25 & 34, 6:26, 9:4 &14 )
*This is the song Ancient of Days that I grew up listening to (if you want another version of song that puts praise into words!)
I am on my 10th week of furlough. Summer is here. And I’m taking some time to be thankful for lots of little things! While I find myself not always with enough to do (productively at least), I’m finding myself enjoying the slow pace of living and the ability to rest. Today I’m listening to birds sing outside. I’m mowing the yard. And I’m watering flowers. Ahh — summer! I love it! (Although I admit I like the look of a freshly mowed yard — the actual work of mowing is hard! My husband normally does this task, and I’m grateful he does!)
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! (Ps. 34:8) Yesterday my mom and I shared flower pictures. It’s fun to watch our plantings fill in and grow. It’s fun to see perennials come up year after year, just because that is how God made them! We mentioned that they make our yards look pretty, and bring joy! Oh, see that the Lord is good! Look around at the beauty of creation! My husband and I have taken several walks along a lake in the last couple of weeks. We sometimes just stop and sit and watch out the on water for awhile. It’s refreshing! Look at the gift of colors and variety as seen in flowers!
Oh taste that the Lord is good! As a kid we had several rhubarb plants. As a kid I didn’t appreciate rhubarb to the full extent! Now, I miss rhubarb! I have been craving it this season, as it seems to be a seasonal treat for the most part. The other week my husband and I were going to make a run to Bakers Square, just to satisfy my craving of rhubarb — a piece of their pie should do! However, due to the riots in our city they were closing extra early, and when I called to ask about picking up some pie they let me know their modified hours for the day, and we couldn’t make it there in time. Oh well! I did not want to buy rhubarb (why is it so expensive for something most growers give away with abandon!), and mom is too far away (I think she still has a plant!). But then later when I was at my sister-in-law’s she had some to share! I came home and the following day went to pick up some juicy strawberries, and the next day –pie! Isn’t God gracious and good to give taste-buds and flavors in so many varieties! Since my husband is not a fan of rhubarb, and since I do not want to tempt my lack of self control with a whole pie, I cut the recipe and used these cute little pie plates we got for our wedding! (Please don’t feel bad my husband won’t get any! I already am planning another dessert that he does like! Plus, I’m the one who craves baked goods. He doesn’t tend to!) I heard a lady say the other day, “I don’t know why but it gives me great joy that it is cute!” I agree! For some reason I really like these cute pie plates! It is just another gift from a good God — little cute things that bring enjoyment!
Oh ladies, God is so good to us! Little blessings abound! Color, taste, pleasures, and so many more! May you take some time to delight in little gifts — in the normal mundane of each day where we take so much for granted. Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord! (Ps. 150:6) (And if you want this classic summer pie recipe – here it is from one of my favorite cooking blogs!)
What strange times we find ourselves in! No one will forget the year of 2020 as it is the year of the coronavirus pandemic. So far, with all things happening in our nation and world, it is a year when fear, anxiety, stress, living on less, questions of what is next or what God is doing, and so many other thoughts vie for our attention. Words with new meanings have become normal to us: social distancing, quarantined, unemployment, masks, temporarily closed, and out of stock. It is a year so far when we as Christians can not worship God together in our churches, and not due to government restrictions based on persecuting Christians, but because of health restrictions. It is therefore a year when we as Christians have battled with the thoughts of “if God protects, why not gather,” and yet the wisdom He calls us to employ of submitting to our proper authorities (presidents, governors and health officials) and of not being foolish with the known health risks, have competed within us and caused church leaders likely much prayer and conversations. It is a year of drive-by parades to celebrate birthdays and graduations. It is a year where Zoom becomes a way of interacting with people and celebrating weddings, when we’d rather sit across the table from friends and share a cake or a game board.
And it has effected every single person on the planet in some way or another.
God has led me to study through the Old Testament these last couple of years. It is a slow process for me, and at times I find myself eating up God’s Word as my favorite chocolate cake — more please, and a larger slice tomorrow! At other times I find myself chewing and swallowing out of sheer willpower – such as the time I ate goat at a friend’s house! I’m sorry to any of you who regularly eat and like goat. I found it chewy and hard to get down!
Now, I love the whole Word of God. But I admit when I hit Isaiah I found a bit of “here we go” coming into my brain. The major prophets of Isaiah, Jeremiah, and Ezekiel are long books! I persevered through Isaiah and Jeremiah and ordered my next study of Ezekiel. It happened to be the beginning of March. Throughout March and April I found myself forcing myself to read, and sometimes rereading and redoing my lesson because I just couldn’t get through the chapters. I’ve discovered the more you read God’s Word, the more engaging it becomes, and the more you want to be in it. It’s because it is living and active! And Ezekiel is no different, it is easier to understand and digest as I keep going, it just is a slow go! That’s ok! God is speaking, and His Word can not return void!
So, today in my lesson I hit, “The more you read Ezekiel, linger in its message, and meditate on its precepts, the better you will understand your God and His purpose for placing you in this book at this time in your life.” Hmm. I pondered this. I reread this sentence several more times. Hmm.
March and April 2020. Covid 19. Furlough. My husband getting a night job because we don’t know what’s next and therefore he sleeps when I’m awake and vice versa — I miss him. Combine that with no work of my own, staying at home, and all else that is going on. Hmm.
So as I’m going through Ezekiel there is one phrase on repeat. Whether God is talking to or about Israel (His people), or to and about the nations (those who don’t believe in God), God repeats this phrase: then they will know that I am the Lord (their) God. His purpose in warnings, in dealing with sin, and even in rest and redemption is so that God’s people and those watching might know that He is the Lord.
Hmm. Why am I reading Ezekiel right now? Why indeed? I believe that during this pandemic God is speaking to both believers and nonbelievers all over the world. Some will come to know God, others will turn back to God, and some will go on as before not knowing God. God knows all this. God allows and controls all things — even calamities. And His purpose is always His renown. He will one day send Jesus back to earth — will we be ready? This season might be a season of God speaking, slowing us down from our normal busyness and distractions, while reminding us of our need for His peace and deliverance. Maybe. Please Dear Sisters — listen! He is the Lord God, and in this season He is speaking to you, to me, to believers, to non-believers, and to the world. His purpose is this: I am the Lord God. Oh may we rest in Him as Lord! And He is good, He is Sovereign, He is our Prince of Peace, and He is our Deliverer! Press on precious ladies to know God and make Him known, even during a pandemic!
Sweet sixteen and never been kissed. Sweet sixteen my heart full of dreams.
I had a plan for my life. I thought I wanted to be a marriage and family counselor. I headed to college with this goal and a dream. A dream to meet a guy, get married, have kids. I wanted five boys! My prideful heart wanted to raise young men who were fun, gentlemen, and knew how to treat a girl – I didn’t always find this in the college boys I knew! I flirted with babies and cuddled them. A stranger in an airport once commented that I must love children as I made friends with a baby across the aisle. I nodded – of course!
I was 25 when I had my first date. I was shy of 31 by two months when I had my first “real boyfriend” – I’d only gone on a handful of dates with a handful of men before that. I married “my first real boyfriend” two years later on my 33rd birthday. This man is nine years older. God gave me cysts on my ovaries while in college, putting me on hormones for 13 years before I ever got married, causing doctors to not know what that would mean for having children later. God gave me an older husband, and a wedding long after I thought He would. God allowed things that would make conceiving difficult. And He took my desire for kids of my own and gave me peace even if I had none. Complete peace. No longings, no yearnings, no jealousy of others. He gave me nieces and a nephew, and great nieces and nephews on my husband’s side. He told me to love them, pray for them, and for their parents. He took my baby flirting too… and now I can hold and cuddle them, but the desire within me to have my own is gone. I pass them back with utter peace. How strange! How different than my teenage plan!
I had thought long ago that I knew what I wanted. Now I find myself unsure what I want. College and grad school to become a counselor came and went. That didn’t seem right, and a counselor I’m not. When dating my husband, we discussed children and thought we’d be fine either way. We discussed adoption and infertility before even getting married, and made choices against, regardless of whatever came. I struggled with feeling like I “should” consider these options, until my pastor said that if that’s not what God has put on our hearts, that’s not His plan for us.
It is now four years later. I’m not living the dream I had so long ago. What am I living I sometimes ask? Why am I in social services, I never thought I’d be doing this! What do I want? I muse over and over. This life is good, and yet it’s not what either I or my husband thought we’d be, me this close to 40, and he to 50! We thought we’d have more, be more, do more. Hmmm.
My husband, my friend. Our lives now one. We can’t make decisions alone anymore. My goals and dreams now encompass another. Being one with him becomes the plan. Yet we are individuals too. What is God’s plan for us? For him? For me? I question this now over and over and pray that he and I become all we were meant to be – which in God’s plan includes unity between us, and following His plans, not just my dreams. Hmmm. I ponder this life, my old dreams, and who I am now.
And then, COVID 19. Things we love stripped from us: socializing, hugging, connecting, church fellowshipping. Easter weekend is here. No church! No family gathering! No Easter baskets or hunts! (Which by the way, I’ve decided children really do promote some of the “fun” of holidays.) No shopping just for fun. No eating out. No going for a lazy drive just because – at least while we are under stay at home orders. No friends in our home. Travel reduced. Work cut off. Finances less. Life in general right now.
I ponder all this. I ask myself: Is Jesus enough? Really enough? Enough to be my everything, when everything around is different than the dream, or even the norm? Enough when there is no other? He says He is. I say He is Lord over me. But here I find myself wanting things this world gives or wanting my dreams to become reality! (Which dreams aren’t bad! But all thing are to be under the authority of Christ over me, even dreams and life as I know it.)
It’s Easter tomorrow. Jesus died and rose again for my sin and yours. He bought my life and the right to each day as He chooses to give it. He made a way for a relationship with Him both now and through eternity. He is enough! But praise be to God who gives so generously! He gives a world full of beauty and color and emotion and relationships and delight! He gives work and meaning and purpose. He gives blessing after blessing. He allows us to choose. And sadly, so many of us choose other loves over Him first and foremost.
Perhaps this strange Easter season, this season of social distancing, and quarantine, and a pandemic –new words to our ears — perhaps this is all to remind us that Jesus is enough, and to show us just how much hold all these other things have over us. Perhaps? Oh precious sisters in God — press on to know Him. He promises to be more than enough for all we need, and to give us all we need for life and godliness! Press on, and Happy Easter!